There's a moment i don't understand myself. I'm always very clear of what i am doing whether is right or wrong, i will always knows it. I'll be very happy when i did something that i think is right to do it. But I'll blame myself or even tells myself that they deserves all these when i did something that i know is wrong.

Sometimes, i will even asked myself if i am an Angel or a Devil. An Angel of helping people out of their problems, saving them from the disaster that will be soon happening, brings people out of their pathetic world. Being a Devil of backstabber, bullying people, betrayed friends & other sorts of idiotic freak things that shouldn't be doing.

I'm getting more and more of not understanding of who am i. Totally is a D-O-N-T-K-N-O-W for my answer. I closed my eyes looked for my own personal dictionary & my own personalities profile. What comes out is not my dictionary nor my profile but mini video clips that reminisce my past. My damn fucker past, an unmemorable past to think of. I'm creating a more memorable moments for the present now. I'm glad that i have did it for these few weeks but i don't wish is just for a temporary of it. Nevertheless, I don't wish that in the next 2 or 3 years later, i have to say the same phrases "I've full of hatred of my pasts!" again and again.

Recently, I've added 2 wishing list in my 's願い. First is 離開 Depression 的世界 which means move away from my depression world. Second is 放下過去所有的事 which means putting down all my pasts. Hopes that i could slash away this 2 wishes as soon as possible as I'm totally sick and tired of it. I wants it to end it soon and start a new fresh life ;forwarding smartly through my path all the way till reaches the Championship stands. That's what i am really looking forward.