Few more minutes are going to be Friday. It's going to be a damn tiring day for me. As later, i might be taking cab down accompanied Darren cause he is afraid of this month too. Yet, i still have the guts to find him in the middle of the night. & i don't plan to go school tomorrow as if i go find him, i confirm late for school and confirm will kana either SUSPENSION or SEND BACK HOME. That's what i hated the most.

So tomorrow my planning is like this, i accompanied Darren and also at the same time wait for his Godfather to come back home. Then we will go watch movie, eat then maybe i headed home get myself wash up and meet up Natasha Kang they all go Paragon see our school Band performance. After that, Diyanah might be joining us for movie, i guess so.

When they are going back home, I'll might be meeting Viviann & Zealous first bahs. Then together go down Katong ton. If not, I meet them up at Katong Shopping Centre. &&i guess Xiiaohao might be there also, so maybe I'll challenge him pool again. Do wish me good luck to defeat him so that i can laugh at him. *EVIL*

Its 7month during August, I don't know why i would be so scared for this year and last year. Usually, i am not afraid of all these. Maybe, is cause the more i grow up and knowing all these things, that's why i will be scare. =x Actually, i was planning to go Genting during National Day but i guess this plan is going to be fail due to 7month. Its alright for me as end of year might be going Taiwan with Guowei, Douglas and Viviann. xD I think i shall stop here. Good nights.

I said that i am officially Missing In Actions but i never say that i will not be blogging. =x My asthma been acting up recently and that's make me so 辛苦(meaning very hard). Yet, i never even went to see doctor to take my Inhaler. I think is because i smoke too much or never really sleep much recently due to my packed schedule that's always been up before the day arrives. && That causes me sleeping in class. But that's seems to be what i always doing in class when i was thinking of something or i am really damn tired.

NOW I REALLY WANT TO SAY THAT I REALLY DAMN HATE CORAL SECONDARY SCHOOL FROM MY BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!!
Just only late for so many times without much valid reasons, never attend the Detention Class that i am suppose to go, I might get Suspension. WHAT THE HELL LAHS!!!!!!! LATE NIA!!!!! ALSO NOT GO AND KILL PEOPLE OR PUT FIRE!!! Need to be like that then HAPPY mehs??!!! &&today, i failed to attend the Detention due to my Mock Examinations. I might not know if i am allow to go to my class tomorrow a not luh. MUST SEE THE FUCKING HELL BLOODY IDIOT TEACHER!!! But i can say that I will not attend any of the Detention Class cause is totally a waste of my TIME!!! &&This is my Last Year in school, i won't give any fuck on it. This is my the ONLY YEAR that I either ALWAYS LATE FOR SCHOOL if not is NEVER COME SCHOOL. My attendance can say is horrible for this year but other years were perfectly alright. arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Whatever... i shall not care about it anymore.

Recently, i am so called kinda of busy. Either is go school, then too tired, sleeping at home the whole day, if not I'll receive calls from Viviann to go to Katong Shopping Center play pool, if not I'll be at home receive different calls from people to play Audition. Singapore's Life are like this, so bored. Imagine other countries people came and immigrate to Singapore, I guess they will get sick of it after a few months later. That's so stupid lahs. Other countries got so many things to play due to the size of the land is so much different from Singapore and there's even states. How i wish that i can travel around the world right now. Singapore is really DAMN SIANNNNN!

Now, me and Viviann starting to know Katong people due to either is take number from us if not is challenge me pool. After all, my results of challenging was not bad, never really lose until so jia lat. Except the Xiiaohao, i lost to him for 4rounds i think and i never even win. Nevermind, i'll win him other time round. I owe him 2Bubble tea due to the lost of game and also i forgot to RING RING wake him up for school. =x Not my fault also, who ask him don't want to put alarm in case people forgot to call him. Stupid right?? =x I think i shall go to my bed. Good nights.

Officially MISSING IN ACTIONS!!! =x
not much using friendster only updates on photo, contacting only few people.....
Due to for preventing any misunderstanding. && don't ever ask me what happens cause I'll never say it out till to a period of time. If there's anything, just call my phone or message me & I'll reply you.

Below are the pictures that were taken during Racial Harmony

My Beloved Darlings xD


Natasha, Serina, Diyanah.


My class Boys!!!

Our Class the Couple. =x

've not been feeling well recently. Losing my appetite, asthma seems to be act up, damn sleepy recently, sore throat now seems to be so faithful to me now, more and more troubles for me to headache. I'll have sore throat at day in the morning but feels better after smoking. 've seems to be addicted to it now. Btw, I'm going for my body check up soon and might be taking Inhaler from doctor in case when i can't breathe well, i can use it for emergency. && might not be blogging, friendster, online much too due to my new schedule for the things recently. 'll be back till everything is done perfectly. But I'll still blog sometimes when i wants to.


Let the Photo speaks my words.

I miss my hair. These 3 photos were extracted from Shi Min's Friendster. These pictures were taken since last year. && recently, i just noticed it. WTH!!!! btw i look at the photos like I'm not 16 at that time like one small kid. =.=||| But nvm, I miss her although i just met her.

19July2008, Saturday

Went out with Darren they all was quite funny luh. I met up Darren first then sit down talk talk awhile. He asked me to see his hair got the white colour highlighted but i can't even see any white but golden highlighted only lohs. So nvm then after that about going to 8pm we took cab down to Geylang 14 there waited for the rest to come and went to eat the 无招牌餐馆. The seafood there are nice & a lot people went there eat, can tell that they are quite popular but yet i didn't even know lahs.

At first only got me, Darren, His God-Father (William) and one more guy. I forgot his name. =x Then until when Chilli and Black Pepper Crab come, JingMei (Darren's Sister) just nice also reached. So we ate up everything. Then after that we took cab down to Geylang 10 or 11 there i think. As Darren wanted to buy cigg and use computer awhile to book online movie tickets. Darren went to use com awhile then me and his sister at the Hotel outside Smoking, smoke finish use com awhile also and then headed down to Bugis to catch a movie.

The movie show called HellBoy. Its kinda of boring lahs. && Only me and Darren at there commenting and watching. JingMei keep using phone then the William sleeping as he is very tired. So left 2 of us at there commenting. After movie, smoke smoke again then after that we went to 7eleven awhile then headed down to Geylang again as William wanted to drop off from there. Then me, JingMei, Darren went to Ang Mo Kio.

I went to ton at their house. We smoked and watched TV then JingMei went down to find her friend talk talk then left me and Darren. Then i really very tired and jitao fell asleep. Slept until 8plus, woke up smoking and chit chatting with JingMei. Then awhile more i went home le.

20July2008, Sunday.

Slept whole day cause i am very tired. =x Then now play Viwawa with XiaoHao. =.=||

Emotion has been breaking down recently, i really don't know what i really wants. Although I've always said that i wanted to end my life but actually I'll not do it. Cause i always know that there's people who do really concern me and i am very aware of that. But i always treat it as no one concerns me at all. My mind always have the same problems troubling me, i don't know how to say it out or should i say it out. Everyone has problems and i don't wish to say it out and become adding on to their burden that they are having now. If can, i just type it out here so that you can read it and you might know what's going on with me.


My "O" Level is coming nearer and nearer as each days go by, yet I've not do any revision. I know all this can be done if i have the determination to do it. But i don't know why, my hand seems like not wanting to touch any of the books, my brain can't even concentrate at all. I'm really get more and more stress of it. I don't wish to waste one more year of retaking "O" Level, is just a waste of my time. I can just look out for a job and thinking which course should i be at for Polytechnic rather than revising the same thing again for 1more year.


I've always wish to fulfill the things that I've always wanted to do it. But all these can be done after "O" Level. arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!! I am getting more and more fed up. Everything only can be done after "O" Level. Although "O" Level is consists of my future. But i can't stand it is that "O" Level seems to be stopping me from doing the things that i really want to do it.


I know my health has not been functioning well recently. This few days i really have no much appetite in it, maybe is because too much things to trouble and causes me like that. && My gastric is not i want it to be pain but i really have no appetite. I just ate a few spoons, i already feel like vomiting. Not saying that i am pregnant but is really no appetite. I really don't know why. My life now is like in a hell. I've got to pull through.


The Past that 've been so faithfully to be whenever i go. Maybe people can say that you can just put it aside first and concentrate on what you are suppose to be concentrating on. But what comes out from your mouth is so easy but what people wants to do it is really very difficult. I've always thought that i have already put down. But actually i have not once put down before, just a close of my eyes letting it to be relax, all the mini clips of my past kept on appearing non-stop. Repeating again and again each time but i did not cry at all cause i am already used to it. However, i really hated it so much as why even i close my eyes also want me to suffer all these. Can't i have some Peace at a moment, just a moment only is that so difficult??

've guess only have all these, I can't remember still have what. I thought that there's a person who will support me throughout this path but cause of my stupid words, everything down to the drain. Maybe everything is fated to be like that. I've to walk alone this path so to prevent from hurting anyone who is close with me. But i hope that i can pass through as i don't know whether if i can still hold on. 've to be strong enough to pull through.

Later, got to meet up Darren, his sister and his God-Father watch movie and then slack. =.=||| Supposedly, wanted to after "O" Level then meet him but i don't know how i will go meet up with him later. I think is kana physco by him. That's why. Then later slacking with them at Ang Mo Kio.

My tummy still pain so didn't attend school today. I think i missed out alot of lessons cause normally Wednesday and Thursday is the longest time in school for lessons. 'm starting to miss my classmate, my table and chair, and of course those fellows that i always with. 've got to buck up for the coming Prelim Examinations for "O" Level. Feel kinda of stress as i have not been revising and there's quite a number of subjects for me to catch up.

hmm..... Last Night, i talked to Gordon on phone awhile then i went to take my medicine and fell asleep awhile. Then received msg from Nicolas asked me to call him. So i called him chatted awhile. As usual, we don't have secret between the both of us. So he told me everything about he and his girlfriend. And now i then know what is going on between they two. But is also none of my business lahs cause as long as my didi happy, i also happy. & of course i told him about my things luh, who ask we are Jie and Di and he don't like me to hide things from him.

Then, now i msging the Darren. He ahhhhh, last night drunk and sent me stupid messages. Then asked him whether he is aware of what he sent me last night and yet he didn't even know. Guess he really drunk luh. Stupid fellow. haiyo.... buay tahan him.

I really don't have any ideas of what to blog so anyhow type. Btw, i now going to play maple and waiting for mummy to dabao for me at the same time. Bye. Those who got play maple rmb to add me lehs, i played the new world de named, GenuineAngel.

Early in the morning 5:30am, left 1 more hour before i prepare myself to go to school. Yet, at this timing, my gastric is really pain like hell. I can't even stand up till the pain is better. So, i went to wash up first then i go make Hot Milk, see if my gastric would get better. But ended up, i really can't go school, so i stayed at home and sleep.

Afternoon, i woke up at 1.35pm cause my mother ask me to wake up eat something if not more worst. So i got myself up and eat. I received 2messages from David & Darren. =.=|| Finally, David's phone ok le and so can message me but he always busy luh. Then this stupid Darren, reply him bo reply. =.='' & want to kek one very sad that i sick cannot come sayang me. Your act too fake le lahs, go train more then come and kek with me more luh. =x

Stupid sia, after that my mother told me that is i kana food poisoning cause the pain is like suddenly ok, suddenly pain. Then, after i eat the medicine, i start to fever. =.=|| I still remember that ytd i told Lay Peng they all said that i too long never fever and i even cursed myself faster sick. Yeah! Its really works that after less than 24hours i sick le. WTH!!!!

Soon, I saw Nicolas didi online, so talked to him in Msn. This Boy got girlfriend forgot this Jie Jie liao. But ytd, he suddenly come talk to me in Msn and said He misses me. =.=|| Ok lahs, i quite miss him also. wahahahhahahhas =x Then after that, i called him and talk talk. He used to can recognize my voice, now cannot. Hiya, sad liao lehs. SI DIDI, don't let me saw you on street ahhh if not one Punch on your face i tell you!!!! &h0r, quarrel with girlfriend, don't sad sad lahs. Anything, jie jie come pei you. I know you trust me the most de lahs. Who ask i am your most favourite JIE & even one and only de lehs. Feel so honoured sia. Laughs*

I think i shall stopped here and go have a good rest. Whole body damn weak now. && CONGRATS that my Maple Character Level up to 46 and now 50% le. hehehehes.

Oh ya, there's something i really want to say. I live for 17years already, i didn't even know that i have asthma till ytd night my mother told me that when i was small, i have asthma but not those severe type de. But she don't know feed me what thing and so my asthma got better. The doctor can't even track any sign of asthma from my body. No wonder, sometime i feel like so difficult in breathing. Sometimes i use mouth to breathe instead of Nose. =.=||

Just came back from school. I've realized that i owed my teachers a lot of homeworks. & i remember what Lovell Darling said to me before "In order to get good grades in O level without any tuition is that Listen in class, Do the homeworks that you were asked to do so, Reached home and revised." I'll try my best to do it. xD

Today, i have "O" Level Chinese Listening Comprehension. After all, the paper was not bad just that before the Oral Starts, we have to listen to the SUPER DUPER LONG MUSICS which makes me feel like sleeping. =x As for the answers, 4Es & 5Ns seems to have different answer. So i can't really guarantee that i will get a very good grades in that. The results for Mother Tongue that might be come out at August will tell me so.

&& During Mother Tongue class today, we were allowed to use the Tablet PC( is something like a laptop). Supposedly, we have to use it for our work, yet we used it for online and other stuffs. Then, we went to www.laozhabor.blogspot.com. & www.stevenlim.net.

Everybody were laughing at their website. The Old lady's blog damn interesting and funny luh. So old already still takes those Cute Acts pictures. Not bad luh, meaning that she never thinks that she's old. Ermmmm.... but for other people thinks might be disgusting cause she's so old le still take those KUKU Pics. Look kinda of funny.

I think the most funny should be Steven Lim Website. So damn hilarious. Especially the Steven Lim self video so damn freaking like an IDIOT & SO DISGUSTING LOHS!! I HATE HIM TO THE CORE!! & he even titled his blog as "WELCOME TO THE WORLD'S MOST HANDSOME GUY OFFICIAL FAN WEB/BLOG/'LIVE' CHATROOM!" WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!

Please lahs, i think i anyhow go find someone on street also handsome than you lohs. Even if he is not handsome at least better than you so thick skin saying that you are so handsome and you have a lot of fans too. WTH!! I think you have a lot of FANS of ANTI- STEVEN LIM better still. & sad to say that i am one of the FANS. & What i see his tagboard are mostly those SPAMMERS or those who HATED HIM PEOPLE. I did join in the fun to scold him before. Cos Look damn FREAKING DE ER XIN LAHS!!!!!!

There's something that i found out. Knowing too much things about life will make your life become so emo. Especially, when you experience things that you've never want it to be happened it before. However, what people usually say "Experiencing things have Good and Bad advantages." So you can't shout that "I HATE MY LIFE." Its all fated. The moral of the story is "Don't ever grow up or Be so Naive, think carefully before you decide something."

've don't know what happen to me recently. I made a plan for my week yet i failed to do so. Just one word to describe me "LAZY". I'm wondering if this is going to continue in me, i think i can just die better. No use of living in this world, who wants lazy bum to be in their company. Lazy Asses no future just a failure. That's all.

Working, studying, playing, making myself busy to keep my mind away from those unnecessary things that kept on appearing in my mind. But i know i can't make it, not due to the lack of self confidence but just LAZY. Can anyone just hit my head as hard as possible so that it can turn back to normal. Sometimes, i even wants to hit my back head so that i can have lost memory. That'll be good. Although memories are gone, but the smiles are back. Should I???

Like now, its already 1.32am. Few more hours to school time, yet i just can't get my ass off from my chair and my freaking hand off from laptop. I've things to do yet i am just LAZY ;trying to drag the time that i am satisfy and then do it. =.='' I think by the time is already next morning. Can anyone save me?? && i find out one thing is that, without ******, I'll not get my ass off from my chair and be a good girl off to my bed. As for now, he's already in his LALA land. && threw me alone in the middle of the night, sitting down using laptop, let the time wasted just like that.

I think is time for me to get my ass off already. Good Nights Everyone in Singapore!

My heart really lightens a lot recently. Everything seems to be back to normal but i hope can last as long as possible. As i don't want anything to come and affect my emotion again. I know myself that i could not take it anymore if there is.

1.) My father worked back the job that he used to be working in. Although it will be quite tiring but at least it can help my house finance become normal again. =))

2.) He came out after 3weeks in QRP. I am really quite happy about it. But one thing sad is that he has to face the judge once again. &it might be the last time that all his brothers and sisters can see him once again. So these few days i guess he might be playing non-stop till the day it comes. Although, we are already apart but i still concerned about you. I hope that you can pass through again like what you did when we were together. Again 8days of waiting & 15th of the month. Do take care if you can't pass through this time round.

3.) I really very happy when Gordon told me that he got full marks for his Maths Test. At least his efforts never pay off. I think if not i appeared in your life, you are still the person that what you were used to be in the past. I'm glad that you've change alot. &&Sorry, if i hurts you sometimes. I didn't mean it, really.

4.) I might be working again due to lack of money for own uses. The job is flexible time but need to undergo a lot of training before you can work. The pay is mainly by commission but we do have a team to work together and earn money & of course for promotions. I heard some of my friends earned at least thousands plus a month due to how many you sell. & if you did one deal, you might can even earn up to $700+++ just using the one week time of selling it. If you are interested, you can come and asked me about it and I'll bring you there.

Today, of course i attended to school and went home after the school bell rang. Reached home, mummy asked me whether if i wanted to go out with her as since she's not working today. && so we went to Bugis shopping. Actually wanted to borrow some money from her to buy Zhi Yuan's birthday present but I don't dare to lend from her because I spent a lot of money. So i think i shall slowly save and buy for him, Better. =x

Recently, there's some of my new LOVES xD

The clothes that i bought today. I know my leg is extra. =x
New Future Skinny Jeans(Black), Bra Set, A Dress.

The Pictures that were printed out by Natasha for my Bdae Presents.
&& behind have some words make me feels very touching.
Loves You Darling.


The ring that I bought for myself as a gift of 17years old.
The necklaces from Darlings,
& the Pouch from the Share of Sharon, TTL and Yin Han.
Thanks alot. =))



Of course, not to left out my new shoes.
&&I try out of wearing the clothes after i bought.

Now it shall be the normal me. xD Enjoy

Lastly, My hairstyle, Left side View & Right Side View.

Just came back from dinner at East Coast Park. My brother treated us ate seafood. We ordered a lot & ate finish up everything. I love all the dishes especially the Drunken Prawn. It is so DAMN NICE!!! I misses those days that my family went to have dinner together and chatted a lot of things. && I realized one thing is that, My brother really changes a lot ever since he went out for work till next morning, late night or early night. I feel so proud of him.

In the past, he used to be a naive guy of course. His studies was quite bad actually. As he retained at Secondary4 as he couldn't make it for "N" Level. & his "O" Level did quite well but except for English, now he is taking a private candidate for English. He always told me to study hard and not to be like him keep retaking examinations is a very irritating thing.

I always chose not to listen as I don't really have the mood to study. & cause of that, he always trying to provoke me of sure fail for "O" Level or whatever shit to push up my motivation of proving to him that i am not of what he is thinking of me. Although, i understand why he would do that but i still always get frustrated with him.

He even told us about his planning for the future & that is OVERSEAS STUDIES for master degree in Business if i am not wrong. As the job that he is working now, is at one of the company at Clark Quey. The company seems to be a big company. As if you worked on full-time and being well liked by the company boss or whatever high positions person, you might get the chance of study the diploma and University for the Master Degree, the company will sponsor you to study. & we don't have to pay any amount for the School Fees. Not bad right?? Now, i am quite interested in the company but i still have my own interests. =))

I guess my parents who were used to worry about him, now have feel proud of him of earning money back for them, treating them eat, concerning them, talk to them nicely. Since my brother can do that, why can't I also do that? I think is time for me to strive hard for it.

Can anyone teach me how to keep my mind empty and peace? I couldn't stand the irritating thoughts that kept on repeating in mind again and again ;Non-stop. Sometimes, just have an urge of banging my head on to the wall & let everything just stop at the time. Everyday no fails of getting irritated by my mind, the shrinking of stretch is going to make my brain burst.

If this is going to continue on, I guess, guarantee, confirm that i will breakdown. Rather let me suffer from all these IDIOTIC stuff, why not just let me dead. That's the best way to let me have a peaceful mind & just sleep all i likes but sad things is that I am going to become a wandering ghost. But don't worry as i won't hunt you people down but only those people that i hated the most. I know i am evil but that i can have my revenge. =x

Everyone does have a problem and a secret that untold. I used to trust a person a lot and so i told him/her everything about my story, yet ended up, we are now become a stranger to each other. I am wondering of who can still trust my story to them. Its really suffering in my heart, so suffocated that i can't feel the breathe from my lungs. The feeling is just like wanted to let it go all once to someone that i can entrust in, let him/her help me hold the weight that i am having now. Yet, doesn't dare to tell anyone as she's afraid same thing might happen again. As there's a phrase that always said by people "Once is Once, no more Twice."

My birthday just 2days away, yet i can't feels any excitement in it. All these years, I have been suffering so much deep in me and never will i went express it out. All are kept so secretly in me. My birthday wish is just only hope that all my sorrows & pain can be vanish all by once.

My blog is now everything alright. My skins have totally changed. I removed away my wish lists. as i feel that there's no need to put any wishes inside. I am lazy to update too. =x Oh ya.... By the Way, my tagboard has changed to Comments which is at below of every post. Do comments in it and also rate it. Thanks =)) Happy reading my blog.