Few more days, I am officially 17years old, able to ton at outside legally although i never tio screening before. =x Actually, i have no intentions of celebrating this year, as I've really no mood to celebrate it i think. Birthday to me, is just a normal day but special as it is because the day i was being brought to this year. && I am so happy cause i won my soccer bet!!!!!! Only win about $23 but at least better than nothing. =)) I can use the money go cut my bloody hair. That's all i want to blog & i really no idea what to write in blog. =/

I have nothing to say but pictures uploaded at here.
All these were taken at 24June2008.
ENJOY! More Photo will upload soon =))

It is the Last day of holiday at June. I really doesn't have any mood to go back to school. Although, i have decided to study hard after June Holiday. So to have a good grades for O level & choose any courses that i like in Polytechnics. & of course, for my future uses. This whole week i have been staying at home played Maple Story, do homework, Sleep, Eat. That's all. I doesn't have any mood to go out shopping or playing, just want to stay at home rest. I shall tell you what happened recently that made my mood damn down.

1.) Recently, i listened what my Mother told me about Father's health. I was so damn worried about him. As a daughter of his, i have never been doing things good to let him proud of me, yet is disappointment. Despite on how many promises that i made to him, i failed to do so. I always forgot his birthday, never celebrate Father's day with him.

I didn't even know his health is getting worst. His stomach has 5holes due to he used to skip meals in the past. That's why I always do encourage people to eat regularly and don't ever just cause of want to have diet, chose not to eat. As i don't really wish anyone in the future would become like my Father. Eat things cannot to be too full, if not will be very uncomfortable. Can't eat a lot of things if not will have diarrhoea. & also the shit that came out cannot be Black for days as it means that there's something wrong in your stomach and can be dead. The feeling is so damn terrible. Everyday have to eat a lot of medicines too. Why must suffered so much when old ages instead of having good life?

Is diet so important or Health is more important?? I don't really understand as maybe i am not a fat person. But eating is a joy of life, isn't it?? Even if want to have diet, you can just eat those healthy foods rather than torturing yourself of not eating anything at all. Please think of your health before you decided to have diet. That's all.

2.) Can i know is it because you are going in, that's why you sent me the message that is seems to be the last message before you went in. & even said a sentence that is so hurtful to me after i replied it. I remembered what you said before. You said that "Don't ever wait for me if i really go in as Girls Youth have limit." And if i am not wrong, you said the hurtful sentence just not want me to wait for you. &I am not so thick skin that keep on say that you still like me but actually i can sense it. Girls' six sense are always very accurate.

This was your Last Message that you sent to me before the day you are going in. "I was sad to give up on you, give up on our love, give up a dream that has been crushed...Although the pain was unbearable but i tolerate it.I thought it was a heaven blessing to us. But you told me to break up. I was sad to forget about you, forget our love, as in the past we had really love each other before... And i was also sad to tell you that once it had been lost, it cant start all over again.. Your Past Love Rayson." After i read it, i really cry out as from the start of the day that i left you, i really very regretted about it.

I tried all my best to take back this relationship but after all, i still failed it. Even if i told the whole world that i have get over you, but actually the real answer is that I have never once get over you. Hope that you will take care of yourself when you are inside. Don't worry, i will take good care of myself and find a better Soul Mate. But hope that we still can contact each other after you come out. I will be looking forward to the day. Your Past Love, Miyuki Ong Shi Yi.

That's all. The end.

Before i end this post, i have found some website that you may can have a look at it. =))

Recently, either is no mood to blog, don't know what to write or maybe is busy to post. I can't remember what i did for these few days but only some of the days.

14June2008
Yuwen's birthday. She's now officially 17 and is legal for her to ton at outside but i know she can't go home late. =x We celebrated for her birthday. She really thought i never turn up for her birthday as i was the latest who reached to the Party World. Obviously, we went crazy for almost every song and we kept on sing the Low Low Low Low song.

After party world, we went to Botak's BBQ to celebrate Yuwen & bought cake for her. She was being thrown in to the swimming pool & she cried. I think she got a big shock luh. Soon after almost all went home, i stayed & have a chat with Jia Hao and Zhi Rong. About 11.45pm, we went home and Zhi Rong ride me back home luh. Thanks luh =))

Photos will be uploaded soon.


15June2008
Stayed @ home the whole day. I'm a good girl. =x

I have already get over him. Don't worry people. =)) 15June Anniversary will never be mine.


16June2008
Midnight, meet up Pei Zong Kor Kor. So long never see him le, I misses him damn lots luh. We still always love to talk cock with each other. He drove me and his friend back to Coasta Sand Resort. Suddenly his friends want to go Old Japanese Girls School & Old Changi Hospital. I was so scared luh. But heng, got my kor kor accompanied me all the way. I kept on hold his hand all the way till we came out. His friends kept on said that we two are couple, boyfriend or girlfriend or whatever shit la. This is not the first time people said us le. In the past, i still remember Ah Chuan PAPA & Amos kept on disturbed me and him during me & Viviann Chalet. But i won't care so much luh cause he is my KOR KOR. Next time, i will go to Namdai ton again if got the chance.

I Love My Pei Zong Kor Kor. <3

17June2008
Stayed @ home. Be a good girl again but i played Maple the New world. If anyone got played, can add me as Buddy. My nick for Maple is GenuineAngel. =)) I talked to LaoSu after that & i off my laptop. I seems to went crazy when talking to him cause i kept on feel like laughing.

&& I READ HIS BLOG!!!!!!!!!!! I was so SHY luh!!!!! aii yoooooooooooooooooooooooooo.........

Love to me is no longer exist in my world but Hatred filled up my life. In my eyes, what i can see now is just only "HATE" this simple word, nothing else. Love to me now is nothing but 8 letter words which is BULLSHIT. I was being sent to a world full of darkness, floor was splashed with a pool of blood, unrest in peace ghosts flowing around, eyes full of fire.

Don't ever come and save me from this world as i am already a hopeless person. Of course i won't let you have the chance to save me out from this world. As i am feeling very happy to be in this world, no longer need any preparation of being hurt by anyone else especially the word "LOVE". It is just a very poisonous stuff that was exist around our area. People might always say "Don't let hatred blind your eyes." I could just say "TOO BAD! I'm already being blinded so tightly that i can't see anything called "LOVE & WARMTH" ".

Those people who have so concerned and care about me, i won't say "SORRY" to you but "Just a bit too sad for you". Your good friend, me here, from a girl who filled with Love&Concern has become a girl who filled with Hatred&Pains. Don't ever feel too sad for me but blame those people who ever hurts me so deeply. The trusts that i gave them have already vanished from the air from this moment. I will no longer trust anyone fully as humans LOVE to TELL LIES. Now, i have only one word in my heart which is REVENGE.

Wish me good luck for my REVENGE! xD

Recently, there's seems to have so much things happening around me & it makes me doesn't really very any mood for these few days..........

1.) 15May2008

The day that me and Rayson together till 5June2008 ended. Entirely is all my fault & I really do regretted about it. It is all just because of my stupid temper when i am coming those stupid idiot so called of "Menustration". I'll start to lose my temper & anyhow throw temper at someone else. When i start to realize that i was in wrong, it was too late. How i hope i can control this type of temper each time but i failed to do so. People, stop asking of why me and him broke of or whatever shit, i will not answer your questions as i don't feel like answering your stupid questions that might spoiled my mood. But lastly, i would still hope that he will come back to me. If not, i will have no more courageous nor confidence to have another relationship anymore.


2.) I Hate Big Fat LIARS!!!

There's an idiot, lied to me with such a beautiful story. He used to told me that how good is his fighting, how handsome is him, how popular is him, how gentle is him. He might think that after he said those VERY MAN story, i would take him as my idol. So crazy for him, loving him so much and so on.... OH MY GOD! PUIIIIIIIIIIIII lahs! All these is not you your own self can judge or telling me that people say so or this or that. Me, my own self have my own eyes, i can see it myself and judge who you are and also my friends network is not as short as what you think of. I can just anyhow asked a person and will know the true self of you. Not to my wrong expectation, you are really lying to us and is so damn HORRIBLE TERRIBLE & VEGETABLE!!!

You think you are really so that handsome, i can tell you is that you don't even know how to dress up, your make up is like shit, your hair and your skin colour is so LAU SUITABLE!

You think you are really so good in fighting, i can tell you is that in my eyes, i can't see any good in fighting veins in your body. To me, is just like a pool of SHIT in it!

You think you are so popular, i can tell you is that nobody seems to like you. All hated to you to the core. Trying to tell me that you are popular, to my eyes you are so UNPOPULAR! Why not you go to the Popular Store where is now located at a lot of places and just stand down there & you might become Popular as you are in a "Popular" store. =.=||

Lastly, this is what i want to say to those big fat liar. People make friends with you is not how power you are or whatever shit but is your own character. Who cares whether you care so man or so power you are. Just be yourself and be a good person so that more friends will come to you and make friends with you. The more you said of yourself trying to let us know that you are so good in this or that, the more we wanted to find out whether it is a true story. Being yourself is a more specific ways of making friends. If there's any negative comments about you, try to change yourself to a better ones. People have eyes to see the effort of you changing yourself.


3.) Sick again.

I'm having a bad cough and sore throat currently. Headache frequently coming these days. Sometimes i will hold on myself if i am going to faint. argghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Although i love to sick but i hate pain in my throats.

4.) Money Money Money

I'm now really a broke FUCK! Totally like no money, wanted to buy clothing yet no money. Feeling so fed up whenever there's no money in my pockets. I wanted to find a job but thinking that few more months to my O level, why not try to take it for few more months. But i know myself, i can't take it any more. Sooooooooo if there's job to intro, do tell me so or email me to my msn @ baBbiiexkiis.ATTITUDE@hotmail.com Thanks!

&& Finally, i just received the pictures that was taken long ago & now is able to upload. xD Enjoy!

Natasha & ME x)) Loves.






the 4Darlings that i adores always.
3/5, 4/5, 5/2


LadyVLMO crazy for camera xD


After all, is all just me, me, me. =x

Just back from home, went out with Natasha, Yuwen, Debbie, Cecilia, June, Lay Peng & her Boyfriend. I was late as i thought it was 1pm met them at Pasir Ris MRT station. But they ended up said is 12pm but i didn't know it. We went to Far East Plaza, nothing caught my eyes but the toy car( Tamiya) competition. We went to eat YaKun Toast but it made me having stomachache after that. argghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Soon after we shopped finish, headed down to Bugis to meet up Debbie as she met us at a later time & June went to work. Looked for toilet & my stomach finally felt better. xD We went to shopped for clothing & also debbie wanted to buy for she & her boyfriend 1month Anniversary present. The clothings & accessories were so tempting to me. I saw Mint dEariie but she seems can't recognize me or maybe she forgot me. =(( We ended up never bought anything but Debbie, LayPeng and her boyfriend bought themselves stuffs. That's all for today & i shall go for my bath and study after that. I've got to catch up all my assignments as few more months to my "O" Level. Time passes very fast just a blink of eyes, is already June.
Below are the photos that were took today.

Just kinda of wanted to have pictures in the camera folder.


Nothing better to do. =x



While waiting for Debbie, Yuwen, Cecilia, LayPeng & her boyfriend.

Looking at more and more people leaving this world to another world of their own. Innocent people left this world without any words left behind. Bad guys always have longer life. Commit Suiciders doesn't know how life is precious. Looking at the rise of selling coffins collecting more and more money into their pockets. Making me have an urge of stopping the death around us. But when is time to go, no matter how we stopped, it still will leave us one day. Everything are fated to be like that. However, Sudden Death giving more and more knowing about life.

Everyone always say this " We are born to wait for Death." There's also what people used to say "Die with no regrets." These two phrases really do awaken me. We might not known when are we going to die. Maybe just a few hours, minutes or second after we born or longer if we are lucky enough. Our life stakes seems to be all fated, just like our fate/life is already written in a book before we are born into this world. I've learned how life is precious, how time is precious. Every minutes and every seconds can take away your life.

I've learned how dream is important to me. Dreams are a goal of our life, it can makes you feel very happy when achieving it or makes you feel disappointed when you failed it. But dreams always let you have the feeling of fasting forward as fast as possible. Even if you failed it, you'll never regrets of putting so much efforts in it as you will tell yourself that at least you have tried it before & never give up halfway through. You chose to step forward, pulling the rope of achieving your dreams getting more and more closer to you.

However, there's always people would say "Don't be too happy when you get what you wants, you might lost something when you got it." and "Don't be too sad when you failed it, you might get something back into your life." That's how life is, no matter how high is your lucks is, one day it will still went down so deeply till you feel like giving up your life.

No one wishes their death have any regrets in it. Everyone would always say that "If time can go anti-clockwise, how i wish i would have did that or never did that before." Since now, what we have now in front of us, why not cherishing it. Although, we would say just taking money from our parents just like an ATM machine. However, we have never thought of the bitterness of them getting those money for us. Yet, we didn't treasure it well but just giving people money so freely. Throwing away foods like no one business. Unlike those poor families, they can't have what they wants, there's no dream for them. Just wishing of not getting themselves hungry.

I remembered that when i was at Johor celebrating Mothers' Day, a kid came and ask my father for money. My father gave him a 2dollars note. To us, is just only a small money but to them, 2dollars can make a different for them. The kid running happily to his family and showing off the money. It looks cute but it really makes me feel so guilty of how i spend my money in the past. Used to have a $500plus in my bank but now just left with $1plus. I really feel so regretted of not spending money wisely but just throwing money to other people's pocket. I really do wanted to make a changes in my life.

I do have my own dreams that I've long wanted to finish it so that the struggle in my heart of achieving it will not be so insufferable. For now, i wants to kick away my bad habits of sleeping for so long, being so lazy of doing things. Although it not say that you want to change, can be changed so easily like ABC. It gonna to take step by step but as long as there's determination in it, nothing gonna to stop you of achieving it. No matter how hard is gonna to be, you will tell yourself that everything will be worth it after you achieving it.

Hope people out there would slowly find their dreams and achieve it. I'm not saying that i becoming more mature in thinking or what so ever but after these few years of exploring and looking things out there, i am getting more and more understand of how life it is.

01June2008, Sunday

I have no images of what i did during 29,30,31 May2008. But 01June2008 i can remember clearly. It was such a scary day at that night. I met up Viviann for dinner and we went to 85Cafe which was at Bedok. The food there was damn nice, you guys can try the foods over there. After ate finish all of our foods, we cabbed down to Downtown East to slack for awhile. VLMO are still Cab Girls. Played Pool, Slack at MacDonald. Then we saw J. di and his friends. They were all so crazy lahs especially J. di like forgot to eat his medicine or just came out from Hougang Chalet.

When we were about to go home at around 2am, J. di and his friends asked us whether we want to go Pasir Ris Park together. As me and Viviann wanted to go there at first but cause of my Father called me & ask me to come home early and be a good girl. Actually wanted to be a good girl on that day but since me and Viviann always so late then sleep & at home also nothing to do, so....... i shall continue be a bad girl which is late go home. =x So we agreed & walked together to there and slack for awhile.

Then we found a bit boring over there so we decided to go back to Downtown East but on the way, J. asked us whether want to go Geylang to find his friends. Me and Viviann agreed and we cabbed down to J. house as he wanted to bathe & also pass me a box of Cigarettes. Soon after he came down, Me, Viviann, J. & J. di cabbed down again to Geylang. We kept on disturbed the Taxi Driver, it was damn funny lahs.

Reached Geylang 18, it was so damn SCARY over there man! It's gonna to be my first time & the last time stepped in to Geylang. Me and Viviann hold hand together and walked through the place of illegal gambling. There's a lot of Guys eyes staring at us when we walked pass. I was like wanted to poke their eyes and make them blind lahs! I was evil i know but i can't really stand those LAO TI KO at there keep on SEE SEE SEE non stop. && it was like imagine an ugly woman walked pass, also can make her to feel like she's become pretty on that night. =.='' OH GOSH MAN!!!! We saw police and we sat down at the road side. IT WAS IDIOT ALSO LAHS! EVERY CAR DRIVE PASS, the UNCLES WILL KEEP ON STARE AT US or anyone walked pass. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I was at there KPKB then finally we cabbed down to Katong Plaza and leave the place. Phew!!!!!!! If continue to stay there, i think i will take a knife and stab the Uncles there. =x

After that is Pool, drinked & home.

02June2008, Monday.

I slept the whole day. =x