27May2008, Tuesday

Late for English lesson. After school, went to have my Lunch with my DARLINGS & Melvyn at Pizza Hut. We shopped around at Tampines & took some Photos & bought stuffs for ourself.

22May2008, Thursday.

Schooling for the whole day& the Stupid Idiot Weather make me SWEAT LIKE HELL!!!!!!!! Hopefully can take my Report Book on that day but ended up only those parents who came are allow to take back their Report Book. So since can't take then i went home with ZhiRong & Natasha. I was disturbing ZhiRong on the way we walked home together. As he wanted to rush home to do his business but due to my noisiness, he surrender. xP So agreed to walk home together. I escorted him home in case his ASS CAN'T HOLD IT ANYMORE!!! xP

Evening I went to eyebrow trimming with Viviann. The trimming was so damn FUCKING PAIN LUH!!!!!!!!!! It was not the person who help me trims fault but is all my fault. =x I've never wentfor trimming for at least Weeks & it has grown back to the original shape but is much more thicker. It looked so SCARYYYYYYYYY. =.='' But now, everything is fine xD.

23May2008, Friday.

Schooling as per normal & took back my Report Book as well as Mid Year Result. If i say out my results, you might faint man!!!! It is totally soooooooo damn ATROCIOUS lahS!!!!!!!!!

English - F9
Chinese - D7
Mathematics - D7
Combined Science - F9
Combined Humanities - F9
Principles of Account - D7
L1R4 - 39
L1R5 - 48

None of it PASSES!! & worst still, my Chinese and Principles of Account usually is a Pass but this time i have failed. =@ But don't worry, i'll study hard for my next paper. xD GOGOGO MAN!!!


24May2008, Saturday

I woke up at around 2pm & helped my Boyfriend, Rayson to do background for his friendster. It looks very normal but as long as he likes it can le. xD

The rest of the time i spent it by watching this show called 终极一家. The show was so damn funny. I love the 啊公 ( Grandfather ) a lot cause he is so damn cute & of cause funny.

've nothing to say but just a sentence.
I'm more urged than anyone else of erasing away all my past.

Event: Kakumei
Venue: St James Powerhouse
Date: 03 June 2008
Theme: Tokyo Couture

The passionately excited party kings and queens.
Longing for a never-before themed party?
Dying to party at a MEGA club?
We bring to you ‘Kakumei ’

The VIRGIN Tokyo Couture event in Singapore!
Held at the EVER-DESIRED club St James Powerhouse!!
Don’t be shy, dress up for the revolution.
It’s going to be the kinkiest party you will ever experience.
You definitely wont want to miss this chance to see your friends all dressed up.
From stunning bright colors to the elegantly chicks and not forgetting, the styled up hunks.
DRESS IN TOKYO STYLE!!
Be it styles from Shibuya, Harajuku, Omotesando, Daikanyama, Ginza.
Whichever you fancy!!

Join us in this Japanese Fashion Event.
TOKYO STREET STYLE PARTY!
From Tokyo, Japan!
PERFORMING LIVE!!
In fusion and perfect sync with
Renowned Deejay Andrew T from Singapore.
We have a very special appearance by:
MC Tai!

Seal, packed & Air flown to our party ‘Kakumei ’Singapore!!
Is the globe traveling Japanese Rapper with the British accent
Born raised in United Kingdom, Germany & Japan, Tai is a multi-cultured, multi-Talented Hip-hop MC.
Picking up rapping from the age of 13, till date he has released
3 Solo mix-tapes featured in Tokyo ALONE!!!
- Sky-Fu- The Way Of The Sky Mix-tape (2005 Tokyo Street release)
- Mc Yama- The Start (2005 Tokyo Street Release)
- Yama- Once Upon This Time (2006 Tokyo Street Release)
- Unity Records- Limited Hip-Hop Unity (2006 HMV Japan Nationwide Release)

In 2007 he has done up to 12 Live Shows in Shibuya and all over Japan
& NEXT! IN SINGAPORE!!!
What started as a way to past time during events has now made
Deejay Andrew T one of the MOST sought-after DJs in Singapore. Having a super fine tune of mixing and awesome taste of song selections to bring about his groundbreaking mixes in the club!!
Today he is one of the most respected & well-known DJs among the residencies in country’s youth, & its versatility in music genres! Having a super fine tune of mixing and awesome taste of song selections to bring about his groundbreaking mixes in the club!!
- Radio showcases (His music can be heard on most Saturday nights during 98.7fm club. (11pm – 12am)
- Selectively he has spun for 103 events world wide in 2007 ALONE!!
IMPRESSIVE?
THAT IS NOt ALL!!

As the BREATH-CATCHING Japanese Podium Dancers are here
In a distance as close as you can grasp!
Their sleek moves will bound to make you forget to blink! ;p
This night will just be SHEER PLEASURE!
IF you want to know what kinky party is like
THIS IS IT! This party is the TRUE DEFINITION
Of the KINKIEST PARTY IN SINGAPORE!!!
-PERIOD-

PEEPS TELL ME YOURE IN FOR THE MOST WICKED & SINFUL PARTY!!
KAKUMEI!!
MIXED AGE PARTY : 16 & above
Price is unknown yet. Details will be out soon!!!
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p/s: 除了你之外我誰都不想要了

The last time we did our Flea market in Coral Secondary School
Graduating Class of 5/2. , Wishes you good luck in O level.
Here only consists of 3/5, 4/5, 5/2 people always together.
& got one extra is 5/1.
I'm simply love in my Darlings!
my eye bag abit obvious due to 1hour of sleeping

Its 5.05am now, i can't get into sleep. When i closed my eyes, is full of my Honey images. I'm attached again =.='', Sorry that i keep on change boyfriend. I just wanted to look for a good Boyfriend that's all, no offence =x. Being Attached to Rayson at 15 of May 2008, 1715. I'm his lucky star, his mine Sunshine. He gave me warmth and love each day & i give him stars to guide him through out. Promising each other of not letting go of this relationship but a very Last Long together. No matter what happen to us in the future, we will still be holding each other hands, bravely walking forward with no fear. =)) This is the first time i feel a guy love in me. The feeling was super great!!! I want this feeling forever!!! xD There's gonna to have a surprise for me at either Saturday or Sunday from my Honey. I'm looking forward to it. <3

I edited some pictures when i have a sleepless night.

Don't ever judge a book by its cover.
You'll never know the results in it, just like judging a person.
You might think he/she is a bad person just because his/her dressing tells you so,
you might miss out a good friend if you never tried to know & understand them.


Illusions Ruin People Life by confusing them.
Don't ever let illusions take over your life, do have a strong determination in it.


If everything can stop at the moments, you would rather just want a beautiful romance.


Secrets Are Meant to be a Promise.


Imagine there's no exits to our path in our life, there'll be no death in this world.

Friday, 9May08

Mid-Year finally ended @ 08May08, Thursday. Debbie, Anna, June, Yu Wen, Cecilia, Lay Peng & Me decided to went for Roller Skating at East Coast. Such a Dumb Ass of us that we walked the wrong route to the East Coast where it can rent Roller Skate. But after all we reached there by hiring a cab to bring us over as we were really tired & lazy to walk back & it also a waste of our Precious Time.

We tried to walk of same foot steps. =.='' But quite fun after all.
LayPeng & Me which is my LaoPuo walking together hold hand in hand. x))



The Neoprints that we took.
They seems to love the picture that i kisses Natasha xD


Me & Natasha lil. secret. xP


We were learning how to kiss in the picture that can look like real at MOS burger.



The first picture abit Censored like as if i am a Sex Manic =x



We took some poses. Look a bit retarded but i like it. xD

I didn't went to school.My mum told me that we did wake me up but i don't have any image that my mum woke me up. & she even asked me if i wanted to go school but i say NO. I was like =.='' maybe i was dreaming. && i stayed at home the whole day watching the show called "命中注定我爱你" till Episode 9 as it was the latest show. I watched till 3am before i went to sleep. I only have 3 hours left for sleeping. =.=''

Wednesday, 14MAYO8

I went to school to get my Mid Year results but was only manage to get back Maths, Chinese & English paper. My results totally like shit as i think i failed all subjects. I totally flung all my Mid Year Paper as i didn't study at all. I'll shall buck up for Prelim Paper & of cos the major exam, "O" Level. After school, i went home change clothes & meet up Viviann. I so damn miss her. xD We went to E!HUB to look for job as i really wanted to go work. No money days really damn SUCKS! & we saw Aloy. He never failed to say me each time he saw me. =.='' Then we went to White Sands Macdonald to have our Lunch & waiting for Timothy as well. Soon after he reached, we took cab to Town & we shopped around, joking around. =)) After that, we went to Swensen to have our dinner & soon after we headed home. && TIMOTHY WAS AFRAID OF ME! WTH =.=''

I'm seems to be a stranger to myself each and everyday goes by. A new fresh day of everyday, we should have a new thoughts to ourself. but it is not gonna to work on me anymore. Same questions keep on went in to my mind. No matter how much i tried to persuade myself, is totally not useful. My depression seems to be worsen as each day goes by. I've told myself

"There's no such things as a mission to your love."
"Believe in yourself that you can make it one day."
"I'm not an angel but a human & is myself."
"Don't let anything makes your mind goes wild."
"True love do exist but it is due to your determination to it."
"There's people who are real concern about you."
"Do not give up so easily."
"You still have your own dreams to pursue for."
"A long path to walk on, carry on."
"You're an author to your own life story."

but........ TOTALLY N-O-U-S-E, NO USE TO IT! My mind still remains the same thoughts after all. I even have a thought of taking drugs. That's what i hate the most in the past but i am urging of having it. I want to have a day that i can feel heavenly. Like as though i am in heaven, no troubles to anything just a peaceful mind.

I do really need someone to help me out now!

After all, i have gone back to my single life. =)) Maybe I'm more suitable for being single. 21 of every month celebrating anniversary has gone. Everything is over at 8May2008 : 3.27pm, just like a game when you lost the game they will tell you "GAME OVER".

Love to me is no longer exists in my world. Confidence for Love is decreasing each time after one relationship and another. Fated of long lasting love is never gonna to be mine. Being hurts for millions, billions of times, adding on to my burdens, being ill-treated is just my ill-fated life. I'll shall face the music, not having any naive thinking anymore. I'm 17 this year, getting older and older by each year but my brain cannot always just stay at younger age, must update new things inside & become more matured and independent.

I'll shall go for my dream that i have been waiting for & wanted it to be fulfill as soon as possible. That would be the most happiest time ever in my life. I'm not depending on any one but using my own strength and ability to achieve it. Do not feel pity for me as i am as strong as what you have never expect it. =]

p/s of the picture: Destroy Everything you touch today. Destroy me this way. Anything that may desert you. So it cannot hurt you ........

After chatting with Debbie on Msn, it really makes my mood feels better than ever. I've realized that actually i ain't strong at all. I doesn't have any strong determination after thinking throughout all my unworthy reminisce of the pasts and the present now.

I'm just a flicker-minded person after all but i just doesn't want to admit it. & that's the point that

it makes me feel so vex each day,
becoming more and more stress up,
whole body seems to be breaking down soon,
& just explode it to the air making friends with oxygen and carbon dioxide,
didn't have any peace in mind in any days,
thinking which one would be the best choice for me,
and so on....

Even if i have already make a choice or any decisions of it. I've wanted to make a strong determination in it but it just only a temporary. In the end, same questions went in to my mind recycling again and again non-stop. However, after much thinking today, I've decided to kick away my bad habits of being too flicker minded and change to a more strong determination thinking of mine. I'll shall cherish what I have now & just let things goes by its way.

I'll shall not elaborate more about it. Today, Maths Paper 2 & POA Paper 1 were totally screwed up as i didn't revised any of it but just a last minute revision. In the first place, I've already prepared to fail all subjects as i don't really knows how "O" Level questions are like. Whether it is gonna to be same as "N" Level or it gonna to be harder & more tricky of it, I have totally no idea to it. Mid-Year is just trying to tell me more about "O" Level questions & that's all to my answer. Since now I have already understand it, I'll shall work hard in it. =)) As i have a dream.

By the way, I have good news to say that. I have finally bought a new contact lens today after my paper. It been gonna to be one year ever since i wore the contact lens. It do makes my eyes feel uncomfortable every time i wear it. But now, i have changed it. =)) && also finally, my hair seems to have grown longer a bit after i have waited it for weeks. I really do miss my long hair. Btw, I'm kinda of tired, wanted to have a nap. Byes


p/s: it's been 7 days ever since i met up my boyfriend. =c

p/s of the picture: Any love that you feel is real. Any time that you use love, You lose love.

Previously these few days, i chat on phone with one of my lil godbrother. He got irritated by a girl who is one of his ex and she's still waiting patiently for this fellow. I talked to the girl as well in conference calls. I told her lots of things to make her heart dies for the guy as it is already not worth it to be so devoted to a guy who has no feeling to her anymore.

As i was speaking, it reminisces of my pasts. When I told the girl " Don't ever cause of one guy, you miss out a very long lasting romance that is in front of you." Although, this sentence should be saying myself but i don't really wish anyone would be like me ;regretted in the end. I do understand the feelings very well as I've ever miss out a very long lasting love.

Even though, now he has came back to me, i do really feels very happy about it. He do really treats me well & that's why i don't really dare to face him. In the past, i seems to be an idiot who hurts him again & again ;i do feel really very bad about it. During the period of his operation, I started to feel empty in my heart when he's not around. That's the time I've realized that I've already fallen in love in him without noticing it. There's a phrase said, "You will learn how to cherish a person after he left you." This the time when i do learn my lesson. I don't really wish the same mistakes happening again in the future.

For now, I'll just let it nature take it course. I didn't know what to do now for the current stats that i am having now.

Recently, 've been stress up for Mid-Year Examination. At first my thought for the paper gonna to be about the same as "N" Level Paper but to my surprise, i was totally wrong. There's a VERY BIG difference in it. "O" Level questions are tricky but "N" Level questions are more straight forward questions.

Obviously, I am going to work more hard in it. Neither I am aiming for any courses nor i have any goals. But I'm giving myself a challenge to prove myself that I am not as simple as what people thought of. A surprising eyes staring into my eyes, a shocking face is what i want to see from other people's expression. People been telling me that " I'm gonna to fail my "O" Level." However, I'm not going to be very disappointed of the words but a more determination to myself. Achieving a result that no one could expect it is my goal.

I do have a dream but it will only fulfill after my "O" Level examinations. I'll not give up myself so easily like what it is in the past. I've put down my past & let everything become a history & no longer going to repeat it again. As for my depression, I do still have a bit but a great recovery in it. Soon, i gonna to slash away my desires. What's my result gonna to be in the future, I'm already feels contented to myself of not giving up whenever i met any problems. =]


p/s: I'm currently missing someone now. =))

This fellow in the picture named ** ********. His name is confidential to let anyone knows. I took it a very long time when we both were very bored while we were chatting on Msn. Small little icon of webcam caught into my eyes. & so i suggested of playing with the webcam. He didn't really let me see the clear image of himself as he adjusted it to a bit of blur vision. It's so damn funny that i laugh till my stomach can't really take on the laughter. Hope that he would found her " Princess " in the future living in a castle forever happily together. =]

Last night, 3.30am watched Iron Man @ Downtown East with ex-colleagues from Macdonald & McCafe. We decided to work together at the new mall that is already officially open. I might be working there as a Part-Timer till my O level ends then i might change to Full-Timer. I'm still considering due to the O level major exam this year. I'll try to manage my times for studies & other things as well. =))





These pictures were took before going for Maths Paper 1. Me, Natasha & Melvyn were slacking, studying, eating @ the White Sands Macdonald. It is a bit kinda of ugly when i was in school uniform. =x

've make a new blogskins of mine.
intending not to change link as is a bit kinda of troublesome.
do comments me about the new blogskins.
so i can change it to a better ones. thanks =))