p/s of the picture: Any love that you feel is real. Any time that you use love, You lose love.

Previously these few days, i chat on phone with one of my lil godbrother. He got irritated by a girl who is one of his ex and she's still waiting patiently for this fellow. I talked to the girl as well in conference calls. I told her lots of things to make her heart dies for the guy as it is already not worth it to be so devoted to a guy who has no feeling to her anymore.

As i was speaking, it reminisces of my pasts. When I told the girl " Don't ever cause of one guy, you miss out a very long lasting romance that is in front of you." Although, this sentence should be saying myself but i don't really wish anyone would be like me ;regretted in the end. I do understand the feelings very well as I've ever miss out a very long lasting love.

Even though, now he has came back to me, i do really feels very happy about it. He do really treats me well & that's why i don't really dare to face him. In the past, i seems to be an idiot who hurts him again & again ;i do feel really very bad about it. During the period of his operation, I started to feel empty in my heart when he's not around. That's the time I've realized that I've already fallen in love in him without noticing it. There's a phrase said, "You will learn how to cherish a person after he left you." This the time when i do learn my lesson. I don't really wish the same mistakes happening again in the future.

For now, I'll just let it nature take it course. I didn't know what to do now for the current stats that i am having now.