p/s of the picture: Destroy Everything you touch today. Destroy me this way. Anything that may desert you. So it cannot hurt you ........

After chatting with Debbie on Msn, it really makes my mood feels better than ever. I've realized that actually i ain't strong at all. I doesn't have any strong determination after thinking throughout all my unworthy reminisce of the pasts and the present now.

I'm just a flicker-minded person after all but i just doesn't want to admit it. & that's the point that

it makes me feel so vex each day,
becoming more and more stress up,
whole body seems to be breaking down soon,
& just explode it to the air making friends with oxygen and carbon dioxide,
didn't have any peace in mind in any days,
thinking which one would be the best choice for me,
and so on....

Even if i have already make a choice or any decisions of it. I've wanted to make a strong determination in it but it just only a temporary. In the end, same questions went in to my mind recycling again and again non-stop. However, after much thinking today, I've decided to kick away my bad habits of being too flicker minded and change to a more strong determination thinking of mine. I'll shall cherish what I have now & just let things goes by its way.

I'll shall not elaborate more about it. Today, Maths Paper 2 & POA Paper 1 were totally screwed up as i didn't revised any of it but just a last minute revision. In the first place, I've already prepared to fail all subjects as i don't really knows how "O" Level questions are like. Whether it is gonna to be same as "N" Level or it gonna to be harder & more tricky of it, I have totally no idea to it. Mid-Year is just trying to tell me more about "O" Level questions & that's all to my answer. Since now I have already understand it, I'll shall work hard in it. =)) As i have a dream.

By the way, I have good news to say that. I have finally bought a new contact lens today after my paper. It been gonna to be one year ever since i wore the contact lens. It do makes my eyes feel uncomfortable every time i wear it. But now, i have changed it. =)) && also finally, my hair seems to have grown longer a bit after i have waited it for weeks. I really do miss my long hair. Btw, I'm kinda of tired, wanted to have a nap. Byes


p/s: it's been 7 days ever since i met up my boyfriend. =c