I'm seems to be a stranger to myself each and everyday goes by. A new fresh day of everyday, we should have a new thoughts to ourself. but it is not gonna to work on me anymore. Same questions keep on went in to my mind. No matter how much i tried to persuade myself, is totally not useful. My depression seems to be worsen as each day goes by. I've told myself

"There's no such things as a mission to your love."
"Believe in yourself that you can make it one day."
"I'm not an angel but a human & is myself."
"Don't let anything makes your mind goes wild."
"True love do exist but it is due to your determination to it."
"There's people who are real concern about you."
"Do not give up so easily."
"You still have your own dreams to pursue for."
"A long path to walk on, carry on."
"You're an author to your own life story."

but........ TOTALLY N-O-U-S-E, NO USE TO IT! My mind still remains the same thoughts after all. I even have a thought of taking drugs. That's what i hate the most in the past but i am urging of having it. I want to have a day that i can feel heavenly. Like as though i am in heaven, no troubles to anything just a peaceful mind.

I do really need someone to help me out now!