Can anyone teach me how to keep my mind empty and peace? I couldn't stand the irritating thoughts that kept on repeating in mind again and again ;Non-stop. Sometimes, just have an urge of banging my head on to the wall & let everything just stop at the time. Everyday no fails of getting irritated by my mind, the shrinking of stretch is going to make my brain burst.

If this is going to continue on, I guess, guarantee, confirm that i will breakdown. Rather let me suffer from all these IDIOTIC stuff, why not just let me dead. That's the best way to let me have a peaceful mind & just sleep all i likes but sad things is that I am going to become a wandering ghost. But don't worry as i won't hunt you people down but only those people that i hated the most. I know i am evil but that i can have my revenge. =x

Everyone does have a problem and a secret that untold. I used to trust a person a lot and so i told him/her everything about my story, yet ended up, we are now become a stranger to each other. I am wondering of who can still trust my story to them. Its really suffering in my heart, so suffocated that i can't feel the breathe from my lungs. The feeling is just like wanted to let it go all once to someone that i can entrust in, let him/her help me hold the weight that i am having now. Yet, doesn't dare to tell anyone as she's afraid same thing might happen again. As there's a phrase that always said by people "Once is Once, no more Twice."

My birthday just 2days away, yet i can't feels any excitement in it. All these years, I have been suffering so much deep in me and never will i went express it out. All are kept so secretly in me. My birthday wish is just only hope that all my sorrows & pain can be vanish all by once.