Ever since the day, i chose to change my life. 've told myself to be strong no matter what happens, be it is happy things or sad things. "Weak" has to be crossed out in my dictionary for now at then.

Being a weak person of me in the past, i got too much hurts that i felt like stopping everything. Foolish of me still even thought of ending my life so that i wouldn't need to face all these hurtful things again....

People around me might thought that 'm someone who can forget things easily and live happily everyday. Actually, 'm someone who struggling to forget the painful memories that had been engraved in my heart everyday.

If time can go back, how i ever wish that all these things have never once happen it before. Yet, if not all these things have been happening around me, i wouldn't be able to grow up to what i am now. From a naive thinking of me become someone who is more mature.

Sometimes i wonder, if this is a good thing or a bad thing. If all these had never happened before, what i am now. Am i still the same old naive thinking girl?? Or am i someone who can be independent?? I will never get the answer.

p/s: am i still myself??