The Stress that i'm having is so Heavy that i ever had it before.

I told my some of those still studying in Secondary School students to study hard for "O" Level. As i do not wish to see them to be in the same situation that i am having right now. Everyday is a hardcore day. Imagine you got to survive on yourself in whole year. Whereby there's no teacher to guide you along with your studies. Every problems that i encounter, i have to try to understand and solve it myself.

Sometimes, the regretful kind of feeling makes me hate myself so much that i didn't attend school at all times last year and is also a year that i can study hard to go to a course or a school that i wish to go for. Although the regret had engraved in my heart. I really do hate the feelings.

However, what is done is done. There's no such things of rewinding the past and repeat it again yet a different story. So i shall face everything and be strong. I even tell myself not to give up no matter how hard its gonna to take me. I want to prove myself that i am capable to cope with work and studies. I know i can do it no matter how hard it is...

I feel so LOST now.....